Saturday, April 20, 2024

Idea Of Reference, Delusions, Social Media

Basically, it's not technically illegal to taunt someone even if it's CLEARLY not an idea of reference delusion? They'll just deny it and say there were no nefarious intentions. But seriously, they tortured me. They'll deny it. But they do kind of confess on social media.


There's no evidence they tortured me, but the evidence is all there on social media. They'll just claim it's schizoaffective disorder and an idea of reference delusion. Or is it an idea of reference delusion? CCC. Catch it, check it, change it. They genuinely love me.


They're literally saying they did it to me through metaphorical clues in social media content. It's clear as day. They don't officially confess and they never will. Stop looking at social media. Assuming it's true, they want me to be triggered by their taunts. I can't do anything.


There's going to be no supreme court case where I put them in jail. They'll just say the post is not a reference to me - it CLEARLY IS - but they'll never confess. They'll gaslight and say there were no NEFARIOUS PREMEDITATED INTENTIONS. It's bullshit. It was torture.


Or am I really delusional? They're not SADISTIC DECEIVERS. They really always had good intentions. They weren't trying to kill me while creating a facade they were helping me. And the clues I see on social media are idea of reference delusions, not their taunts and confession.

Friday, April 19, 2024

HIV Scare (04 19 2024)

For the record, I've attempted suicide over the HIV scare many months ago, maybe even a year ago now, I told no one and can't officially say how. Thankfully, there is no betrayal and I'm in a better place now. But yeah, it was bad. So if you're thinking of making light of it...


Realize no one was hurting me. It was an accident. Still traumatic. But as Dr Garrett would say: "Good applications of the brakes to keep your mind from spinning off the road."


Everything is fine right now. It happened a year ago. But don't make jokes about it. It's not funny.


So I did open mic night for comedy. I got an idea of reference delusion that someone was making a joke that made light of a situation I've been in. But I need to realize he was addressing the whole audience. He wasn't talking directly to me. It was his comedy act. CCC. Catch it.

Paradise Studios (04 12 2024)

Paradise Studios (04 12 2024):



April 19, 2024

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April 19, 2014

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Just Confess


I'm not "delusional." They're sexual sadists who were getting pleasure from my suffering. It's OBVIOUS. I ask them to confess the truth. I'm not trying to start an argument. There's clearly secrets. I want them to communicate. It's just a matter of how bad their deception is.


I wish they'd stop lying and be transparent with me. I SUSPECT they had NEFARIOUS INTENTIONS. It's pretty obvious they did.


I know. They know I know. I know they know I know. Yet they STILL LIE.


Just confess the truth already.


They tell me to "take my medication as prescribed" - which I have been. They say there's nothing for them to confess. The 3C's. CCC - catch it, check it, change it. Stop the emotional tsunami. The SADISTIC PERSECUTORS were the bullies from 25 years ago, correct? No one currently.


Let's call a spade a spade here, was my father (Robert Koloski) raping me in my childhood? I don't have a memory of getting raped. No one has corroborated it either. They say traumatic mental blocks don't exist. But I SUSPECT he was and my mother is aware too. Catch it. Emotional.


I've successfully recovered from the "my parents are pedophiles" DELUSIONS. It's been replaced by the HIV scare was PREMEDITATED and they were pharmacologically abusing me through negligent Dr. Coplan. Realize I'm coming to a feeling of conviction about what I SUSPECT.


Am I really suffering in solidarity being involuntarily celibate? Yes. But it's not a credible idea that my mother, father, and stepfather are SADISTIC DECEIVERS and SEXUAL SADISTS who were metaphorically raping me. I'm really suffering. But they love me and want the best for me.


Thursday, April 18, 2024

Artwork (04 18 2024)

They Did It To Me, Confess (04 18 2024):


CCC (04 18 2024):


Clean Baby (04 18 2024):