extremely frustrated

Tweet 01. 
I'm so frustrated, I can barely function. I'm hoping someone's going to come and rescue me, but nobody's coming. I need to meet people. But I'm socially anxious, agoraphobic, and feel like a defective freak - so I hide from the world. Then I get extremely irritated that I'm alone.


Tweet 02. 
If anyone's out there - can you help me, please? I'm in a hellish prison of frustration, and I can't seem to escape. The feelings are SO INTENSE that it's non-stop suffering. And my anxieties and insecurities prevent me from changing. Someone, help! I'm trapped in hell.

Started

I'm frustrated and I want to get started in media, acting, comedy, screenwriting, videos - something artistic. Time is passing by. I'm 32 years old.

As you've seen, I've done internet art. I'm very talented.

But I'm beginning to panic and get desperate. How can I get started?



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I've put a lot of time and energy into internet art but it's a dead end, and I need to let go. I've wasted so much time in my bedroom. The real world is scary. I blame my mother, say she's preventing me from entering the real world. But it's internal, not maternal. I'm to blame.

My Prison

I'm EXTREMELY frustrated, socially isolated, and alienated. Anxiety and agoraphobia prevent me from meeting new people. People from my past have moved on, and there is no secret Fairy Godmother, who'll save me. I like to blame my mother, but my prison is internal, not maternal.