Kelly And HIV Scare Posts (07 31 2023)

Post 01:

If Kelly tells me Wednesday the HIV scare was premeditated, which I'm assuming she won't do and she's telling me the truth, no matter what we're doing I'll stop. I won't get angry. I'll drop her at the train then never talk to her again.

Post 02:

If you're planning to confess you intentionally gave me the HIV scare, maybe it would be best just to do it over a phone call. Rather than awkwardly tell me, then we wait for the train to drop you home.

Post 03:

In 2019, I was vulnerable and needed mental health recovery, the last thing I needed was an HIV scare. That's the last thing anyone needs really. But I was especially broken at rock bottom. I guess you can sink lower. HIV scare is lower than 2019.

Post 04:

Something tells me something really bad was going on in late 2019 / 2020, and unfortunately for me, everything that could've gone wrong did. Everyone says it's just suspicions becoming delusions, blurring fantasy and reality, and I proclaim these "delusional" beliefs as facts.

Post 05:

I'm seeing Kelly as Satan, but she's not Satan. Far from it. She's a good person. Take off the Satan lens. See her as the lovely, wonderful person she is again. She would not hurt me with premeditated intent. She's not a deceiver or liar. It was an accident.

Post 06:

Whatever happened in 2019-2020, my father knows and he's gaslighting me. Kelly knows. They say I'm delusional. They say they are telling me the truth. They just want to cover up something nefarious that they did.

Post 07:

I realize it's proclamation of beliefs. No one has told me this. But what I suspect happened. I was already having a panic attack about HIV in bed-stuy. Then hours later Kelly is the one who threw the debris that led to me going on PrEP.

Post 08:

Again, proclamation of suspicions... But Kelly might've threw the debris because she was annoyed I was getting HIV panic attacks, unaware it'd be my metaphoric death, and when she tells me the truth it'll be the end of our friendship as we know it.

Post 09:

Maybe tell myself nobody is giving me metaphorical hints and clues. Kelly said it was an accident. My father said he doesn't know what happened that night. Maybe accept I'm getting delusional. Nobody is a monster behind the mask. Deceiving me for over 3 years now.

Post 10:

As much as everybody wants to erase the past, do revisionist history, it's Kelly's fault and I took PrEP, not to mention the mental trauma it caused.

Post 11:

I want the truth about everything, but they continue to lie to and gaslight me. They say they are telling me the truth. There was no prank gone wrong. There was no conspiracy. I just suspect it was a prank and a conspiracy. And I proclaim my suspicions as facts.

Post 12:

They were treating me like a laughing-stock with no dignity. Now they want me to be the villain to erase what they did to me. Basically, their bullying metaphorically killed me. And they're trying to victim blame me for what they did so they can justify it in their minds.

Some Posts (07 31 2023)

Post 01:

I thought I believed in love at first sight, but maybe now in hindsight, it isn't what I thought. Two people can sense each other's good vibrations, be physically attracted, and make sparkly eye contact. However, a lot follows the instantaneous moment of two people connecting.

This initial love-at-first-sight moment is not a bad way to start a friendship/relationship. Often, the hottest flames and beginnings have the coldest ends. Or maybe they live happily ever after. Who knows?

Post 02:

I want to believe there's a God, but there's more real-world evidence Syd Barrett is my biological father than any religion is true. Saying "I know there's a God", "I suspect there's a God", and "I sense there's a God" is just as true as saying I SUSPECT Syd Barrett is my father.

God is like an organized delusion. It's a comforting delusion - but there's no scientific evidence to support the existence of any religion. It'd be nice if good people were rewarded and went to heaven. Bad people were punished and went to hell. It's just SUSPICIONS aka delusions

Post 03:

My father has a missing tooth. Now I realize he has an upcoming dental appointment, and I realize it hurts and he should probably get it fixed, but it might be cool for a sensationalistic BROKEN Matt Hardy kind of look if he kept it. It doesn't look cosmetically appealing. It looks BROKEN Matt Hardy appealing.

Post 04:

Did Kelly give me the HIV scare with premeditated intent? If so, I have no desire to see her Wednesday or ever again. I'm going under the impression she's not deceiving me and the social media posts and photos are predicate logic, ideas of reference, and illusions of significance

Post 05:

I'm under the impression Kelly did not give me the HIV scare. She didn't want me to take PrEP. It was an accident. She's not a monster behind a mask. Believe her. Trust her. She's not deceiving me. When I get emotional - I blame her, but it was not her fault. It was an accident.

Post 06:

Try to see Kelly with the "she's me best friend" lens, not the "SADISTIC DECEIVER" lens. I'm sure we'll have a lot of fun Wednesday like old times. When I get emotional, remember the love we shared, don't get lost in SUSPICIONS becoming delusions because I'm angry about my life.

Post 07:

If I'm angry about sitting in solitude for 2022 and most of 2023, that's an unintended consequence of my break-up with Kelly. She didn't owe me a relationship. She's not my mother or family. If I choose to sit in solitude and pour my life down the drain - that's my fault.

Post 08:

When a dentist operates on your tooth, an unintended consequence of the dental visit is pain. Breakups are painful. Especially when you lack social skills, self-confidence, and go back to a solitary daydreamland. Kelly wanted to end her friendship with me. That's ok. It's life.

Post 09:

Hypothetically, if romantic love interests from the past knew a pop superstar and they were all having fun while I was in a solitary daydreamland. Yes, socialization was the key to recovery, BUT they don't owe me friendship or anything. It's upsetting everyone else had a life.

Post 10:

If the HIV scare was premeditated that's an entirely different story. That's sadistic bullying, like a metaphoric rape. But it was an accident. They just don't want to be my friend. No one wants to be my friend because of my schizoaffective. It's MY RESPONSIBILITY to meet friends

Post 11:

I'm crying out for friendship and help. No one wants to help me. I need to acknowledge I'm the problem. Help myself, try to recover, and then maybe I'll finally have a life for the first time ever. It's dependency on my parents - especially my mother that keeps me a manchild.

Post 12:

If Kelly tells me Wednesday the HIV scare was premeditated, which I'm assuming she won't do and she's telling me the truth, no matter what we're doing I'll stop. I won't get angry. I'll drop her at the train then never talk to her again.

Dr. Garrett, Emails, July 2023, Proclamation of beliefs

Proclamation of beliefs

My Email:

Jul 29, 2023, 5:47 AM

to Michael, Michael, Jeremy, Jeremy.Coplan

I'm sorry for all of my proclamation of beliefs posts yesterday. When I become emotional I feel the need to send it. But try to only speak in facts, not emotion, because emotion is the key to delusion. Before I send an email catch it, check it, change it. Ask myself is there evidence to support this theory. Or is it just a fantasy. If I tell myself it's a fantasy and there's no facts to support it, don't send the email. Because at that point it's just a proclamation of beliefs. Only send things that there's evidence to support. Not my theories

Dr. Garrett's Reply:

Jul 29, 2023, 8:44 AM

Andrew, it is terrific that you were able to reflect in this way.   You caught it, checked it, changed it.  Keep that up.  Unfortunately, you take your suspicions as to the meaning of "hints" as facts, but they are not facts.  Metaphorical "hints" and suspicions are one variety of emotion, among other emotions, like anger.  These "hints" that you interpret as gaslighting are in psychology called "ideas of reference" (as we discussed in the last session), which means having an idea that a perfectly benign mundane event has special personal significance.  These illusory "hints" are distracting you, leading you to continue to lose opportunities, day after day, to engage the world as it is.  Dr G

My Email:

Jul 29, 2023, 10:14 AM

When I get SUSPICIONS (delusions) don't let them become facts until it's PROVEN. Tell myself it's predicate logic, ideas of reference, and illusions of significance. And if people tell me what I'm saying is untrue - believe them unless they have a proven track record of lying (which Kelly does not). Maybe they admitting the truth. 

Often, I get rapid delusional mood swings based on my emotion. I go from thinking they love me, to they conspired to kill me, back to they love me. This will confuse people and ruin meaning for relationships. They won't understand how your mind works.

It seems like this is much more complicated than their narrative, which is: "it's genetic and he's the craziest of crazy like BROKEN Matt Hardy (a sensationalistic buffoon)"... No one wants to accept it's a mental health INJURY and recovery is slow. I need socialization, love, and independence to heal. As we've said, get off social media, get out of solitude, and live in the real world with people.

Unfortunately, my social skills are very poor and I'm extremely self-conscious. But the more you practice the better you'll get. I could potentially meet a girlfriend in the real world too. I joked I should take my computer and throw it in the ocean because I'm ruining my life with social media addiction.

Kelly and Elon Musk

The following posts are delusional, obviously. They're taken from emails to my psychiatrists and I heavily censored them for obvious reasons. But I think they're worth sharing.:

Kelly (or someone I know) really knew Elon Musk (or someone like that). She was bullied by Elon Musk. Now I'm being hooked up with her as an apology to her. They're telling me through hints and metaphors. It's true.

This happened when Kelly was about 18 years old. She was constantly talking about Elon Musk and AI.

Kelly's not in her late forties. She's actually about my age. In her early thirties. Kelly And Elon Musk might have repaired the relationship sort of

I suspect I just interacted with the Elon Musk

Back in the day, she told me how she was emailing the FBI about how he was a pedophile. But there was basically nothing she could do

Kelly is like... yep, I really KNEW Elon Musk before you.

If you don't like it, meet someone else. Which I'm struggling to do. Even if I do meet someone new, I won't have a deep connection like we do.

She's like: Checkmate.

I realize this is a proclamation of beliefs, almost like a fictional story I'm writing, delusions...

But I'll continue with the daydreams...

This is like the movie Fight Club. I don't realize it, but I'm a part of an underground community online. We're all creating mischievous posts on social media. Kelly's known me on social media since 2008. There's a pop Superstar who's associated with us like Robert Paulson.

And in the end, I'm going to be holding Kelly's hand atop some skyscraper while a nuclear explosion goes off because of the Fight Club.

But this is not a movie. Kelly's exactly who she says she is. Has been dealt some difficult cards in life. I'm living in delusions.

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HIV Scare Posts (07 28 2023) - 3

Post 01:

When these psychopaths tell me the truth, I'm going to be so angry. It's not going to be funny. I'll go into a rage. It'll be scary. I don't know who is responsible for the HIV scare. But the whole thing was premeditated and we all kind of know it at this point.

Post 02:

It's obvious my father knew the HIV scare would happen in some way. I'm not sure if there was miscommunication with my mother and me taking PrEP wasn't supposed to happen. Or if PrEP was intentional too. But they all metaphorically raped me and they lie about it.

Post 03:

Tell me the truth. You all gaslit me into having an HIV scare. Stop lying. Admit it. Now I feel defective, damage, metaphorically HIV positive. Prior, I felt like a "clean baby." Now I feel like an untouchable that no women will want. Though, my blood work is clean, technically.

Post 04:

Why did these monsters metaphorically rape me with premeditated intent? It's OBVIOUS they did. Admit it! Was there some motivation? Or are they just SADISTIC TORTURERS who wanted to hurt me while I was vulnerable and going through mental health recovery?

Post 05:

They tell me through metaphors and little hints it was an "accident" - like The Blue Blazer, but don't OFFICIALLY tell me. Say it to my face what happened, be transparent and honest, because something nefarious happened and it's so frustrating they're not telling me what happened

Post 06:

Maybe it was an accident and my schizoaffective disorder makes me see predicate logic, ideas of reference, and illusions of significance in the social media content. I believe everything looks too fishy to have not been a nefarious conspiracy. But they say nothing happened. Lies!

Post 07:

These psychopaths should be in PRISON if it was premeditated. This is not Gotham City where you can do whatever you want. Their torture led to me going to the poor person's psychiatric hospital TWICE this year. They SHOULD NOT be in millionaires jail - assuming they even go there

Post 08:

Quite frankly, these monsters had the audacity to think they were above the law and I could never expose what they had done to me. That's why they did it because they ASSUMED they'd get away with it. They should be in prison. Why are they above the law? They shouldn't be.

Post 09:

If you go to jail, don't blame me. You were just a pawn in these psychopathic millionaires sick game and I was their torture victim.

Post 10:

Quite frankly, there should be an FBI investigation, a New York Police Department investigation, a Nassau County Police Department investigation... Not me emotionally ranting on social media about it. Sadly, my parents won't help because they're involved and want to cover it up.

Post 11:

Why would they sadistically hurt me with premeditated intent? People are giving me hints as to why. Tell me to my face. I'll transparently respond to literally everything because I have nothing to hide. I'm a complete victim here.

HIV Scare Posts (07 28 2023) - 2

Post 01:

TELL ME THE TRUTH, YOU ALL CONSPIRED TO GIVE ME AN HIV SCARE

Post 02:

Stop lying and TELL ME

Post 03:

They're fucking psychopaths then they proceeded to lie about metaphorically raping me for years. They're still lying. No one has officially told me it was premeditated. Though, it's obvious it was.

Post 04:

Tell me the truth, tell me who is responsible, admit what happened. It's not a delusion. These psychopaths really conspired to give me an HIV scare and just decided to lie about it afterwards. Tell me who I should be angry at for hurting me with premeditated intent.

Artwork (07 27 2023)

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HIV Scare (07 27 2023):

HIV Scare Posts (07 27 2023) - 2

Post 01:

When Kelly officially tells me the truth, I'm probably going to hate her. I'm probably hate my father too.

My father said: "So, you hate me!!!!! Thank you"

I said: "Are you lying?"

He said: "Why are you acting crazy again?"

I said: "Because the HIV scale was premeditated and we both know it"

He said: "Ok"

My father said: "I have told you over and over and over the truth. Your delusions just will not allow you to believe the truth.  I constantly tell you the truth, but you want to blame everyone. I will not lie to you and risk going to Hell. I will not bear false witness !"

Post 02:

I don't know why I think the whole religion thing is a troll, my father is secretly deceiving me, making a joke, and lying. If you say you're being honest and transparent with me, I guess that's what I need to accept. Maybe I'm getting emotional and that's causing delusions.

Post 03:

Let my emotion calm down. Nobody would want to hurt me with premeditated intent unless they were an evil psychopath.

Post 04:

I basically start to think the HIV scare was a conspiracy to hurt me then my mind goes haywire.

HIV Scare Posts (07 27 2023)

I know they say they're not lying, but I feel they are. They're deceiving me about a lot of bad shit. One MAJOR LIE is the HIV scare was premeditated. They know if they tell me the truth I'll go into a RAGE.

They say there's nothing to admit and I'm having delusions. I don't believe it. Something fishy was going on. Tell me the truth.

They were lying about literally everything. Tell me the truth about everything.

They gaslit me into having an HIV scare... admit it.

Can somebody tell me the truth?

HIV Scare Posts (07 25 2023)

Post 01:

Did you INTENTIONALLY conspire to gaslight me into having an HIV scare in 2020?

Post 02:

Tell me the truth... You conspired to give me an HIV scare with premeditated intent to metaphorically rape me. Admit it.

Post 03:

My birthday wish is for someone to admit what I know is true - that the HIV from 2019 / 2020 was no "accident." Something nefarious was going on. Whoever conspired to metaphorically rape me should be in prison for literal rape in my opinion because that's what it feels like.

Post 04:

Can someone tell me the truth about what happened in late 2019 / 2020? Something was going on. Can someone CONFIRM what I know is true? They really gaslit me into having an HIV scare.

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Green Bunny (My Moms Coloring) (07 25 2023):

July 25, 2023

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My Dads Colorings (07 25 2023)

Happy Birthday (My Dads Coloring) (07 25 2023):

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Some Posts (07 25 2023)

Post 01:

I SUSPECT I'm autistic. Though, I'm not officially diagnosed. I'm diagnosed as Schizoaffective. Through metaphor, Dr. Garrett joked how it's hilarious by metaphorically raping me it exposed what narcissistic losers they all are. They don't give a shit about me. They like my story

Post 02:

I'm jumping to a conclusion about what Dr. Garrett's metaphor meant. He could've actually meant how it's hilarious this will be the end of a rich and famous pop stars career. Obviously, it was my psychiatry session. So the metaphor had a relationship to me in some way.

Post 03:

Don't get emotional. Speak in FACTS. Dr. Garrett was using a metaphor. But he might not have done anything nefarious. Saying: "it's hilarious an unintended consequence of this is..." could mean literally anything, not that he tortured me with premeditated intent. It's delusional.

Post 04:

I'm overthinking what Dr. Garrett meant. Maybe it was simply a benign comment. What would Dr. Garrett's motivation be to torture me? He's in psychiatry to HELP PEOPLE, not to etch a metaphoric rape into patients psyche. He's the best in business at psychotherapy for psychosis.

Post 05:

The reason I don't terminate sessions with Dr. Garrett is because I'm double-bookkeeping. I believe he's the best at psychiatry. I also become emotional he's a monster behind a mask who gaslit me into having an HIV scare to sabotage me and was getting pleasure from my suffering.

Post 06:

Don't take the bad path and become emotional about the most traumatic experience of my life. See Dr. Garrett for who he is - a good man who likes HELPING PEOPLE. He's not a SADISTIC DECEIVER. I'm projecting that into his mind because I was bullied twenty years ago.

Post 07:

Why do I post on social media when I think Dr. Garrett is a deceiving sexual sadist? Why don't I contact the police if it's true? No one hears or believes me. They dismiss me as emotional and schizoaffective. They ASSUME what I'm saying is delusional and can't be true.

Post 08:

Could the best in the business at psychiatry turn into a self-righteous September 11th terrorist and metaphorically crash your plane into your house to prove a point about capitalism and the United States of America? I guess so. Though, that is a very improbable thing to happen.

July 24, 2023

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Dr. Garrett And HIV Scare Posts (07 24 2023)

Post 01:

Dr. Garrett used a dentist unintentionally causing pain as a metaphor. Kane from the WWE was an evil dentist before he was Kane. Kane is actually a Satan gimmick. Predicate Logic, Ideas of Reference, and Illusions of Significance? It's not a confession of intentional torture.

Post 02:

How do you say in court Dr. Garrett gave me an HIV scare with premeditated intent. What proof do I have? He said an unintended consequence of a dental visit is feeling pain. He is speaking in metaphors and confessing it was him. But that is far from legal proof. Is it delusions?

Post 03:

If I think Dr. Garrett is really the sexual sadist and fiend who gave me the HIV scare... Why don't I terminate sessions with him? It's because I'm double bookkeeping. I believe he's the best in the business at psychiatry who is trying to help me. I also believe he's the monster.

Post 04:

I'm becoming delusional. Dr Garrett is not a deceiving monster behind a mask. He was not creating a facade he was trying to help me but was secretly trying to sabotage me. No one metaphorically raped me with premeditated intent. I'm blurring fantasy and reality. It's daydreams.

Post 05:

It's important that I stop what I'm doing RIGHT NOW. Am I emotional over the HIV scare? Yes. Am I looking for someone to blame? Yes. But it was an accident. Emotions are not facts. You can't say I feel it's true, I suspect it's true - that's not facts or evidence. It's delusions.

Post 06:

Was I sadistically tortured and that's etched into my psyche, now I see monsters behind the faces of everyone I get close to when I become emotional? Yes. 23 years ago. BULLIES took sadistic pleasure in my suffering. Presently, I'm projecting trauma into the minds of good people.

Post 07:

What happened was an accident, not some nefarious master plan by Dr. Garrett. ASSUMING he's even speaking in metaphors. He's not confessing in a way that will be impossible to prove in court. He's showing me how the metaphor is emotionally triggering and I believe what I want to.

Artwork (07 23 2023)

They're Lying To, Gaslighting, And Deceiving Me (07 23 2023):

Volcano (07 23 2023):

Green Bunny (My Moms Coloring) (07 23 2023)

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HIV Scare Posts (07 23 2023)

Post 01:

Did they really conspire to give me an HIV scare?

Post 02:

Can people stop lying to me and tell me the truth?

Post 03:

If Kelly didn't give me the HIV scare with premeditated intent... Explain the social media content and photographs before, during, and after. She's admitting it.

Post 04:

Tell me the truth about everything.

Post 05:

They really gaslit me into having an HIV scare with premeditated intent. Why did they do it? Simply because they're sadists who wanted me to feel HIV positive? Was there a reason? Or am I getting emotional about the most traumatic experience of my life and becoming delusional?

Post 06:

I'm projecting my intent into the minds of others. There were people who took sadistic pleasure in my suffering and it's etched into my psyche - but it's 23 years ago. Presently, Dr Garrett, Dr Coplan, Kelly, my parents - no one is getting pleasure from my suffering. Bullies did

Post 07:

When I say they metaphorically raped me EMOTIONALLY it feels true to me. Emotions are not facts. The facts are I stepped on debris then chose to take PrEP. No one had me at gunpoint and forced me to put anti-HIV medications in my mouth for a month. I did it all to myself.

Post 08:

Am I very sexually frustrated and feel as though I've been involuntarily celibate for most of my life? Yes! But no one is forcing me to pour my life down the drain. Am I suffering tremendously? Yes. No one is getting pleasure from my suffering. I'm projecting it into their minds.

Post 09:

January 2020 was an accident. Sitting in solitude after breaking up with Kelly in December 2021 is an unintended consequence of our breakup. Yes, I wasted 2022, descended into madness, and now I'm wasting 2023. She is not my mother. It's my responsibility to live my own life.

Post 10:

I'm in a lot of pain over the breakup and my decent into madness. When a dentist operates on your tooth the pain you feel is an UNINTENDED CONSEQUENCE of the dental visit. Kelly did not intend for me to feel pain. But she did want to end her relationship with me. I'm very ill.

Post 11:

Prior to meeting Kelly, I felt wholesome and pure. In 2019, she even described me as a "clean baby." Now I feel traumatized and damaged. But it's actually not Kelly's fault. I went insane over getting intimate. In reality, there was zero HIV risk and she showed me her blood work

Post 12:

PrEP does not infect you with HIV. My blood work is clean. The only thing that is the same about PrEP and HIV is HIV in the subject. I never had HIV, I was never at risk for an HIV infection, and I don't have HIV presently. I'm still a "clean baby." It was a panic attack.

Post 13:

I know Dr. Garrett doesn't like when I send my proclamations to the world to him. I think these posts illustrate progress in CBT. The HIV scare arose in my mind, I became emotional, then I utilized the catch it, check it, change it technique. This is why I sent it to his email.

Post 14:

These posts have the potential to spark mental health related dialogue between Dr. Garrett and I. It's not just emotional "they're deceiving monsters behind a mask" posts. I ask questions, illustrate pulling myself back to reality, rather than getting lost in a delusional tsunami

Post 15:

About the fishy-looking social media content before, during, and after the accident. It's predicate logic, ideas of reference, and illusions of significance. No one is admitting they conspired to give me an HIV scare. No one is mocking me. It's just a benign social media post.

July 21, 2023

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Kelly And HIV Scare Posts (07 20 2023)

Post 01:

Tell me the truth... Did Kelly intend to give me the HIV scare? Did she metaphorically rape me?

Post 02:

Stop giving my hints and tell me the truth right to my face. Kelly INTENDED to do it to me.

Post 03:

Fucking admit the truth. Enough with this deception.

Post 04:

They're admitting it without officially admitting it. TELL ME. Why did Kelly do it to me?

Post 05:

Stop keeping it secret and admit it.

Post 06:

I'm going to be so fucking angry when Kelly tells me what I know is true. Stop lying, keeping it secret, and tell me.

Post 07:

Now I'm going to feel damaged for the rest of my life and will have to reveal to all future partners how I took PrEP. I going to HATE KELLY.

Post 08:

Kelly intended to never tell me, keeping it secret, until it got so fucking bad, and I couldn't even walk without checking behind myself a million times for "hypodermic needles." Got extremely OCD and geomorphic. She took a vulnerable mental patient and intentionally tortured me.

Post 09:

Kelly was my only friend. The only one I trusted. She gaslit me into having an HIV scare. She's the monster behind a mask.

Post 10:

If I find out Kelly was lying and it was premeditated - I'll feel betrayed and will be crushed. I'll be so depressed and won't know what to do because I love her. But she's the one who intentionally gave me the most traumatic experience of my life.

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July 19, 2023

July 19, 2023:

Otto Warmbier

I did look like Otto Warmbier when I was younger. He must be my long-lost brother.

Meds

On the left is me in March 2023. On the right is me in July 2023. Fucking Abilify (antipsychotic) and Rabeprazole. The meds made me fat.