Saturday, December 31, 2022

Who is the psychopath?

Who is the psychopath?


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Is my mom the psychopath? Is my dad the psychopath? Is Bun Bun the psychopath? Is Ed the psychopath? Well my mother definitely is that's for sure. She was trying to kill me.

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December 31, 2022

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If you're a dermatologist, please look at this scar on my neck and give your opinion. My dermatologist said it was scarring from shaving a few months ago and I accepted it as fact. If you think it's skin cancer, something life-threatening, or urgent, please let me know ASAP.




Some Posts (12 31 2022) - 2

Post 01:

My parents raped me in my childhood repeatedly. I was a sex slave. When I became an adult, they kept me dependent. They got sexual pleasure from keeping me in a metaphoric chastity belt, depriving me of a life, and they got off how I had no power and could do nothing about it.


Post 02:

There's a character from Breaking Bad called Hector Salamanca. He's crippled, has no power, and is being sadistically tortured by two-faced Gus Fring. He kills himself for revenge. My social media posts, at times, are my attempt at getting revenge for rape and SADISTIC TORTURE.


Post 03:

I was a sex slave who was being put through the metaphoric Holocaust by my parents. None of the psychiatrists believed me. They ASSUMED I was the problem. The truth is my parents were monsters behind a mask who were pretending to help me, but were secretly trying to murder me.


Post 04:

How much louder do I need to say I am just a sex slave to my parents, for them to torture and murder, before Oskar Schindler saves me from this death camp? Unfortunately, I was being held prisoner, my parents were getting sadistic pleasure from having me waste my best years.


Post 05:

This is not an emotional daydream tsunami. The problem is NOT ME. I was being held hostage, forced to take chemically lobotomizing meds. My parents are SEXUAL SADISTS. I guess it was stockholm syndrome? They kept me dependent. It was Holocaust-level torture to MURDER ME!


Post 06:

My parents were sabotaging my life, metaphorically cutting my neck, all they taught me was how to be a sex slave. That's why I couldn't function. They say I have freedom. What do I even do to get away from these sexual predators? I'm financially dependent. It's listen or homeless


Post 07:

Although the psychopharmacologist won't admit it because he'll lose his whole career, get sued, maybe even go to jail... He proceeded to side and listen to Adolf Hitler's (my parents) victim-blaming narrative. He was over-medicating a sex slave and abuse victim (me).


Post 08:

To not realize my parents were deceivers the psychopharmacologist would have to be the biggest moron on planet Earth. He's not a moron. He knew. He witnessed the SADISTIC TORTURE and proceeded to do NOTHING besides over-medicate based on their gaslighting and lies. It's REALITY!


Post 09:

The psychopharmacologist will say his intentions weren't nefarious. I disagree. POSSIBLY initially they weren't. But at some point he had to realize my parents were sadistic deceivers - which means the mega regimen of medications were unnecessary torture. Meaning he's nefarious.


Post 10:

If the psychopharmacologist didn't realize my parents were sadistic deceivers maybe he needed Exelon, not me. He knew. He was collecting his massive paycheck. Didn't want to get involved. Assumed I'd amount to nothing positive. He was selfishly sweeping torture under the rug.


Post 11:

All the doctors could've, but failed to rescue Anne Frank, Otto Warmbier, a sex slave (me) from his death camp. They'll try revisionist history to erase their negligence. They knew my mother was INTENTIONALLY cutting my neck to murder me. They watched time go by and did nothing.


Post 12:

My mother intended to give me cancer. She was slowly murdering me. Keeping me as a financially dependent HOSTAGE for years. It's that or be homeless. I have stockholm syndrome and was never taught to be independent. They were sabotaging my life. I was literally their SEX SLAVE.


Some Posts (12 31 2022)

Post 01:

I'm really excited to start dating you. I think we're soulmates. Maybe we could start a family. Hopefully, I live a long life. I don't think there's any way I'm outliving you. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if I have less than ten years left alive. We'll see. Maybe I'm healthy.


Post 02:

I can't tell if you were involved with Elon Musk or not. You've hinted it to be true. You've shared stories about wild past experiences. However, I wouldn't be surprised if I was your first and only partner. I think honesty is the best policy. I know your intentions were good.


Post 03:

My mother always likes to comment on my weight saying things like, "you're getting so skinny." It's almost like she gets off from it in a way. It's weird because I never comment on hers or anybody else's weight really. I don't really care unless you're a potential love interest.


Post 04:

My parents are sexual sadists who were INTENTIONALLY trying to MURDER ME while creating the facade they weren't.


Post 05:

My father (Robert Koloski) is a rapist, a sexual predator, a pedophile who put me through Holocaust-level torture. I was his sex slave. I wasn't delusional. They were gaslighting me. Victim-blaming me. INTENTIONALLY trying to murder me.


Post 06:

I was never delusional. My parents were putting me through Holocaust-level torture. They were gaslighting me.


Post 07:

My parents are sexual sadists who were torturing me. The only reason I stay is because they keep me financially dependent. I have Stockholm Syndrome. They were gaslighting me. Raping me. Intentionally trying to murder me. I was nothing more than their sex slave. Not a "delusion"!


Post 08:

My parents are trying to murder me, they have been for years. I was never delusional. They're deceiving monsters behind a mask. They were intentionally trying to give me cancer. They were sadistic sexual sadists. This is not just an emotional temper tantrum tsunami. It's a fact.


Post 09:

My parents gaslight me. Tell me I'm delusional. Tell me it's an emotional daydream tsunami when I accuse them of being deceiving sexual sadists. Behind their mask, they were getting sexual pleasure from my suffering and we're trying to kill me while pretending they weren't.


Post 10:

To my parents I was never anything more than a sex slave. They were keeping me prisoner, dependent, and sadistically torturing me. I was like an abducted child with Stockholm syndrome. My parents didn't want the best for me. They were sexual sadists. But I was comfortably numb.


Post 11:

What happened is I was like Otto Warmbier, in a North Korean death camp at home. Rather than rescue the abuse victim, the psychiatrists all listened to the victim-blaming gaslighting narrative of the North Koreans and proceeded to kill an innocent sex slave. My parents are Satan


Post 12:

My mother gaslights me. The truth is I am not the problem in the household. I have no power. I am a sex slave who has to listen to my masters. If I don't, the victim-blame me to the psychopharmacologist and get him to negligently prescribe medications to chemical lobotomize me.


Post 13:

My mother's intentions with the psychiatric medications were not to help me. She was being a nefarious criminal. She knew I wasn't to blame. In her mind, she suspected the medications were giving me cancer. She was intending to murder me pharmacologically. She was nefarious.


Post 14:

Unfortunately, it'll be hard to prove my mother was trying to murder me pharmacologically because the psychopharmacologist will say I need the medications, my mother will deny being a monster behind a mask, he'll say they don't cause cancer, and they will say I willingly took it.


Post 15:

My chains were maternal, not internal. She was two-faced. Secretly, I was her sex slave who she was literally trying to murder. She forced me to waste time in a metaphoric chastity belt. Kept me financially dependent. Chemically lobotomized me. She enjoyed watching me die.


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Friday, December 30, 2022

Dr. Natural Email (Dec 30, 2022)

Dr. Natural Email (Dec 30, 2022):

"Andrew

You write with such seeming confidence about your assertions that your parents are intent on destroying your life and yet the conclusions you reach as expressed in one email to the next are often quite contradictory.  There are even contradictions within one email, as is the case today.  No one is writing your post but you.  No one is forcing you to write totally contradictory statements.   It is your mind that is directing you in that way.

For example, in Post 01 below, your father is a monster.  By Post 6 he is no longer a monster.  Which is it?  Both cannot be true.  This contradiction is entirely of your making.  You wrote these posts.  We can understand these rapid changes in your beliefs if we assume that in your mind there isn't any objective truth anymore, no single reality of what actually happened.   All you seem to have is a truth of the moment, a feeling-truth we might say, driven by your emotions, which leads to your changing your beliefs rapidly in ways that do not make objective sense (surely you would agree that your father can't both be a monster and not a monster - that doesn't make sense) but simply reflect what you are feeling at the moment you are making a post.  You seem less aware these days of the impossible internal contradictions in your assertions that at times in the past.  I remain concern about this."

Some Posts (12 30 2022)

Post 01:

My parents (Robert Koloski and Christine North) were literally attempting to murder me. They are sexual sadists who were SADISTICALLY TORTURING ME. The "mental health issues", while true somewhat, a lot were their victim-blaming and gaslighting.


Post 02:

Who wouldn't be mentally ill if you were kept prisoner as a sex slave, being deprived of friendships, independence, while they were attempting to murder me? I needed the psychopharmacologist to rescue me from victim-blaming Adolf Hitler, not prescribe a mega regimen to Anne Frank


Post 03:

The psychopharmacologist doesn't want to admit he was negligent because if that's true, he'd lose his entire career, get sued, and may even go to jail for over-medicating Anne Frank based on Adolf Hitler's gaslighting narrative, while Hitler suspected he was giving her cancer.


Post 04:

My face is red and irritated. Is time running out for me? Do I need an emergency dermatology appointment RIGHT NOW? I was outside, all day long, for over a decade, often not wearing sunscreen, constantly getting burned. The reason they didn't intervene is they wanted me to die.


Post 05:

My stepfather doesn't like me. He never has. He looked at me like a burden. Being around him was like walking on eggshells. My mother knew. She knew he was the problem. However, she proceeded to always side with him over me even though their abuse was literally killing me


Post 06:

My father (Robert Koloski), although he was absent from my life for the most part, he was not the sadistic sexual sadist who was intentionally trying to murder me. The people who were getting sexual pleasure from my suffering were my mother and stepfather.


Post 07:

My mother and stepfather knew exactly what they were doing. They were trying to murder me. They were getting sadistic sexual pleasure from hurting me. They were gaslighting and victim-blaming me. The reality is they're sadists who were torturing me. They were trying to kill me.


Post 08:

My mother and stepfather will try to do revisionist history about how bad it was. If anything, I'm under understating it. It was worse than you could possibly imagine. They put me through Holocaust-level torture. They are sadistic sexual sadists who were trying to murder me.


Post 09:

My father (Robert Koloski) is not the sexual sadist. The true monster who was trying to murder me is my stepfather. My father wants me to succeed. He helped me expose their sadistic torture.


Post 10:

It's like I was in my mother and stepfather's North Korean prison camp. I was being sadistically tortured by psychopaths. To them, I was basically a sex slave for them to murder. It's not even an exaggeration. It's practically a fact. It was Holocaust-level torture.


Post 11:

To my mother and stepfather I was a sex slave for them to use, sabotage, and sadistically torture. They metaphorically cut my neck to murder me. They were intentionally trying to give me cancer. They were sadistically hoping I got hurt in so many different ways. They're criminals


Post 12:

Say what you will about my father (Robert Koloski), he didn't intervene and left me as a hostage in the metaphoric North Korean death camp, but he did photograph and document their abuse. It's undeniable my mother and stepfather were intentionally trying to MURDER ME.


Post 13:

When it comes to my father, I guess it's a lot more fun to party with "Howard Stern" than to rescue Otto Warmbier from the North Korean death camp he's in. Sadly, this went on for decades. If I don't have a terminal illness like cancer now, I'll get diagnosed soon, from torture.


Post 14:

The problem wasn't me being Jeremy from Pearl Jam, the problem is I was being tortured by SADISTIC SADISTS. I was a sex slave they were trying to murder. My mother and stepfather were like Adolf Hitler with horrible intentions. I was like Anne Frank. Nobody rescued me from hell.


Post 15:

The psychopharmacologist had to know my parents were victim-blaming me. If he didn't realize it he has to be the biggest moron on planet Earth - which he's NOT. He knows medicating Anne Frank will ruin his career, get him sued, and maybe lead to jail time so he sides with Hitler


Post 16:

My mother and stepfather knew exactly what they were doing, they were sexual sadists who were metaphorically cutting my neck INTENTIONALLY. They were pretending to help. They're monsters behind a mask. Behind the mask, they were trying to kill me in so many different ways.


Post 17:

It's becoming so obvious I was a sex slave for my mother and stepfather to sadistically torture for decades. They'll try to push the "Anne Frank is mentally ill" narrative. Wouldn't you be ill if your parents were INTENTIONALLY putting through the metaphoric Holocaust? You would!


Post 18:

If Otto Warmbier survived North Korea and was home in the U.S.A. now, I guarantee he'd have a mental health injury too. Luckily for him, his home environment wasn't the North Korean death camp. I was living in a death camp all day, everyday. They knew they were torturing me.


Post 19:

My parents kept me in solitude for decades, forced me to waste time, and pour my life down the drain. They were PRETENDING they loved me (it's a facade). The were holding me prisoner and attempting to murder me. They SUSPECTED they were and INTENDED to slowly kill me with cancer.


Post 20:

On second thought, my father (Robert Koloski) was without a doubt a sexual sadist who was getting off from torturing me as well. It's just that so were my mother and stepfather. All of my parental figures are monsters who were victim-blaming and trying to kill me.


Post 21:

Unfortunately, nobody loved me in my household, especially not my parents. I was a sex slave for them to use and torture. They were like my sadistic masters. They were metaphorically cutting my neck and getting sexual pleasure from murdering me. It's a fact.


Post 22:

To my knowledge, nobody rescued me. I had to rescue myself. I had to expose what happened myself. However, it seems like my parents want me to expose the Holocaust-level torture they put me through for decades for whatever reason. They want me to scream what happened online. Why?


Post 23:

I suspect either somebody powerful is my real biological father, or my father started another family with Howard Stern's sister. When I prove my parents put me through the metaphoric Holocaust it's going to be completely wild in the streets because I was a sex slave for decades.


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My mother knew EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS doing. She was trying to give me skin cancer, to murder me, while creating the facade she was trying to help me. Behind her mask, she was getting sadistic sexual pleasure from my suffering.



Thursday, December 29, 2022

Some Posts (12 29 2022) - 3

Post 01:
My mother was a sexual sadist who was putting me through Holocaust-level torture for 35 years. She was INTENTIONALLY attempting to murder me.

Post 02:
The psychopharmacologist and psychiatrists were negligent listening to my victim-blaming gaslighting mother who was controlling my narrative with the goal of murdering me pharmacologically. She's a sadistic sexual sadist who got pleasure from my suffering.

Post 03:
My mother was getting sadistic sexual pleasure from keeping me dependent, forcing me to pour my life down the drain, forcing me to take medications that she suspected were giving me cancer that were negligently prescribed by the psychopharmacologist, just to name a few things.

Post 04:
I wish my mother's sex slave. She had me in a metaphoric chastity belt. She sabotaged friendships, deprived me of girlfriends, and kept me in isolation for my childhood and adulthood to sadistically torture me. It was Holocaust-level solitary confinement. I was her prisoner.

Post 05:
Unfortunately, the psychopharmacologist and psychiatrists don't want to accept it's true because they're going to get sued and will probably go to jail. Sadly, it is the truth, my mother's a sadistic monster, and by not intervening it gets worse and worse every single day.

Post 06:
It's really sad coming to the realization that I really was my mother's sex slave for her to torture and attempt to murder. People who should have been helping like the psychopharmacologist and psychiatrists, they listened to Adolf Hitler and proceeded to medicate Anne Frank.

Post 07:
My mother was getting sexual pleasure from my financial dependency, from keeping me an adult-child at 35 years old, and from victim-blaming me to all the doctors. The truth is she was blaming a passive, subordinate, sex slave that was being tortured by a sadistic sexual predator.

Post 08:
I don't know why the FBI isn't arresting my mother right this second. They really need to.

Some Posts (12 29 2022) - 2

Post 01:
I'm reading how dangerous it is to be in the sun. I was in the sunlight everyday for YEARS, repeatedly getting burned, often not wearing sunscreen. It doesn't appear like I have skin cancer and got a dermatology check earlier this year. But am I screwed? Will I definitely get it?

Post 02:
I was so reckless and self-destructive for over a decade. But I don't want to come down with skin cancer when my life finally starts to get good.

Post 03:
My mother knew exactly what she was doing by not intervening when I was outside exercising for years. She knew I was putting myself at extremely high risk for skin cancer and she was getting sadistic sexual pleasure from watching me self-sabotage. She literally wanted me to die.

Post 04:
My mother knew exactly what she was doing. She was trying to murder me while creating the facade she wasn't. She was getting sadistic sexual pleasure from my suffering. The reason I was suffering is because she was intentionally torturing me and keeping me prisoner.

Post 05:
My mother was creating a facade she was trying to help me. She was secretly trying to murder me in so many different ways. Her intentions were nefarious. She wanted me to get cancer. She wanted me to die. She wanted me to suffer. She's a sadistic monster who was enjoying my pain.

Post 06:
My mother needs to be in federal prison for attempted murder, assuming I'm not literally dying and it's murder. She was trying to kill me intentionally in so many different ways. Pharmacologically by getting doctors to be negligent, by neglecting self-sabotage, feeding me trash.

Post 07:
Can the FBI intervene and save me from Adolf Hitler (my mother) right this second? She has been sadistically torturing me, putting me through Holocaust-level suffering for 35 years, while getting sadistic sexual pleasure from my pain. She was PRETENDING she was trying to help.

Some Posts (12 29 2022)

Post 01:
My mother really was INTENTIONALLY trying to murder me. Instead of saving me and getting me out of the hostile environment, my father took pictures and documented the neglect and abuse. My father would make jokes about my suffering, comparing it to North Korea, but wasn't present

Post 02:
My mother was holding me prisoner, depriving me of a life, I was like her sex slave, and she was trying to give me cancer in so many ways to intentionally murder me. The ways my mother was trying to murder me will be really difficult to prove in court, but it's complete fact.

Post 03:
Despite my parents creating the facade they were trying to help me, the reality is I was never anything more to them than a sex slave for them to sadistically torture. My mother knew exactly what she was doing. The suffering I went through was unimaginable. I was never delusional

Post 04:
It's a tough pill to swallow realizing I was simply my parents sex slave. All the psychiatrists and psychopharmacologists, instead of rescuing Anne Frank from Adolf Hitler, they proceeded to listen to their victim-blaming narrative and contribute to the metaphoric Holocaust.

Post 05:
My mother is a sexual sadist who is getting pleasure from feeding me the same bland trash every night and enjoys my suffering. My throat is very dry. Her food is way too dry. She knows I'm sexually frustrated. She knows I'm going crazy. She's getting off sexually from it.

Post 06:
I know we said in psychiatry my chains are internal, not maternal. Maybe now I'm agoraphobic and lack social skills. Maybe now my mother isn't holding me prisoner. In the past, she very much was keeping me a dependent adult-child. I was in my mother's metaphoric chastity belt.

Post 07:
The sexual abuse "delusions" I was getting in 2011 weren't delusions. My parents were monsters behind a mask. They were creating a facade they were trying to help me, but they were secretly sexual sadists who are getting off on my suffering and trying to kill me pharmacologically

Post 08:
My mother pretended to be a loving Catholic lady who was sexually repressed and oblivious. Secretly though, she was a sexual sadist who had me in a metaphoric chastity belt and was keeping me dependent to sadistically torture me. What she did is intentional attempted murder.

Post 09:
My psychopharmacologist was negligent. He proceeded to medicate Anne Frank, Otto Warmbier, a sex slave, based on the sadistic serial killers narrative. I needed to be rescued from North Korean prison I was in. I needed Oscar Schindler. Not to be medicated by a negligent doctor.

Post 10:
I think my parents destroyed my computer when I was at the gym. I can't prove it and can't question them because they'll gaslight me and deny it. But they totally did break my computer. I have no doubt. Now it's broken and goes into BIOS. It was fine before the gym.




Wednesday, December 28, 2022

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Some Posts (12 28 2022) - 2

Post 01:

My parents are going to use the Shaggy "It Wasn't Me" defense. They're liars, have always been liars, and will continue to lie even if there's an upcoming supreme court case. They knew exactly what they were doing. They were intentionally torturing me and attempting to murder me.


Post 02:

They say life is a beautiful thing and to be positive. If you were detained in North Korea like Otto Warmbier, sadistically tortured, then ultimately killed, there's little to smile about. In the U.S.A. money is freedom. If you don't have it, you don't have freedom.


Post 03:

My parents were getting sadistic sexual pleasure from keeping me financially dependent, depriving me of a life, and torturing me. It's not an exaggeration to say I was their sex slave. They were PRETENDING to help me, behind their mask they were literally trying to murder me.


Post 04:

You might say that I'm 35 years old. It's my responsibility to leave Joanne Greenberg solitary daydream land and to socialize in the real world. Maybe I'm anxious, agoraphobic, and self-conscious. It's easier to daydream I'll be a billionaire artist from social media posts.


Post 05:

My life is a house of cards being provided to me by my mother. When she dies, I'll be up shit creek without a paddle. I have NO MONEY. Why is she enabling this fantasyland? At least in low-functioning housing in East New York with a schizophrenic roommate, I won't be homeless.


Post 06:

Right now, I'm metaphorically like a 600lb person who is lying in bed and getting fed gluttonous amounts of food. Is the person PROVIDING THE FOOD sadistic and nefarious? Do they feel guilty? There needs to be some kind of intervention. Maybe tell him to start lightly exercising.


Post 07:

My parents provide me with the internet to live in my fantasyland, hoping to become a billionaire movie star. IT FEELS LIKE they've left me in solitary confinement all day long for my whole life. They PRETEND TO HELP, but secretly and sadistically want me to be Joanne Greenberg.


Post 08:

My parents were watching my self-sabotage and were secretly and sadistically hoping I got hurt. They were pretending they loved me. They're actually psychopaths who were WISHING DEATH ON ME and have even attempted to murder me in ways that'll be difficult to prove in court.


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