But I rarely get out of the house and have suffered from mental illness for years. I'm afraid everyone will see me as a damaged freak and view me in a critical way. I laughed with my doctor about the yoga studio full of bullies narrative since it's absurd. It's not unrealistic to think there may be a judgemental person or two, but not EVERYONE.
If I don't panic like a deer caught in headlights the entire time, it'll be nice and people will be more into their exercise anyway.
I'm 32 years old and I should've been living life. Instead, middle and high school bullies resulted in social isolation and living in a fantasyland.
Throughout the years, there were so many yoga-like opportunities I should've done. Sadly, I wasted my life afraid.
Thankfully since my friend bought this membership for me, I must go. I'll try behaving confident, and not like a socially anxious freak.
I'm getting butterflies already. I'm trying to tell myself I have a cold, but I'm fine. I'll just go and enjoy myself.
It's in a little over an hour.
UPDATE:
I just completed Ashtanga Yoga for the first time. It was a positive experience.
I just completed Ashtanga Yoga for the first time. It was a positive experience.
A good workout that was great for the body and mind. My arms, legs, and abdomen are sore (in a good way).
I was quickly learning the poses through repetition.
Nice people.
No bullies.
There were about 7 or 8 people in the class. I was the only guy. That's a good thing. However, attractive women often give me internal panic and I have difficulty focusing and concentrating on the instructor. How do I get over this? This seems like a High School and College problem I should've outgrown by now.
I have 6 more sessions. I will do more yoga soon.
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