I'm waiting for my friends, but I'm feeling very sick mentally. It's anxiety, frustration, depression, feeling like a defective freak... I just don't want to be here. I want to be safe and sound at home. I'm considering canceling and just going home.
I got a pizza from the pizza hut. Touched the credit card machine. Ate the pizza without sanitizing my hands. I'm catastrophizing about HIV or coronavirus.
Some homeless guy harassed me for money in the food court. I was feeling depressed so I said, leave me alone. He began freaking out on me. Calling me a "dick", getting uncomfortably close to me.
Life's one big nightmare haha
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UPDATE:
It actually wasn't too bad. I had fun despite thinking I wouldn't.
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