friendship

I don't think people realize the intense pain I'm in. It's unbearable. I'm waiting for friends to reach out to me, maybe I need to reach out to them.

I'm weak, vulnerable, and desperately need good friendship. I'm messed up. I often can't tell reality from fantasy. 

I'm afraid I've made major mistakes and I'm upset nobody was helping me. 

I'm afraid this won't end like a feel-good Hollywood movie. It was a LOUD cry for help.

Basically, I'm completely BROKEN, SHATTERED, and wonder why friends let this happen. I guess I didn't have any friends.

Thankfully, I'm meeting some real ones now. 

As you know, I'm often afraid of betrayal.

I have BEST FRIENDS now, the first real friends of my life. Be happy!