October 5, 2022:
Post 01:
The EoE is bad. Acid reflux in throat, stomach pain, heart burn. I'm taking the rabeprazole. I don't know what the problem is. I'm afraid I'm developing cancer. I'm scared.
Post 02:
Stop catastrophizing. I got an endoscopy a few months ago. It wasn't cancer - it was EoE. I have another appointment Friday.
Post 03:
I'm down to create a music album if anybody wants to record me. I have artwork I can use for the album cover too.
October 6, 2022:
Post 01:
Even if my ex-girlfriend was involved with a billionaire prior to meeting me - it's a daydream becoming real. She's my EX-GIRLFRIEND. She's not in my life anymore. I didn't share with her my past partners. Though, they were all people from the suburbs, not one of the richest men.
Post 02:
All I do is artwork and the gym. That's what I do every day until the end of time.
Post 03:
My recent recorded comedy performance actually kind of sucked. Very disappointed with it. Because my heart started racing and all I could focus on was "I'm having a heart attack." Knew the jokes. Could've delivered then a million times better. Told it was actually a panic attack.
Post 04:
Lots of people have anxiety and panic attacks. It's just disappointing because I WANTED to rock and roll doing comedy and have a perfect performance... But it totally wasn't. I won't give up. I plan to do comedy again.
Post 05:
No matter your age. You can still do it. I didn't truly begin until I was about 30. As long as you're not in the nursing home, crippled, with dementia... With determination, you can overcome tremendous odds stacked against you.
Post 06:
Sadly, I feel like life's over for me. Don't waste time as I did. Not diagnosed with cancer yet. It's hypochondriasis at the moment. Cancer can end things abruptly. I'm convincing myself I have cancer with no evidence. It feels like I'm about to get it if I don't have it already.
Post 07:
Accept facts. Don't let your emotions and fears make something true that isn't - a delusion.
Post 08:
I would like to have kids someday. But I'm getting older, and older. I have no money and am dependent on my parents. I'm afraid it'll never happen. I guess lots of people in poverty have children. I just want my dream soulmate.
Post 09:
You don't need to have your life together to have a child. You can be a mess and have a kid. I'm pretty handsome, smart, charming. The problem is the dependency and lack of money. That's why women don't want to associate with me.
Post 10:
I suffer from severe mental health challenges. My diagnosis is Schizoaffective disorder. They say don't disclose that on a first date because it might scare somebody away, but I'm honest to a fault. Haha.
Post 11:
I'm not a scary guy. Although I very much have Schizoaffective disorder, I'm like an angel and a very nice person.
I suffered a lot with this condition, sadly. It ruined my life up to this point.
Post 12:
I'm trying to become rich from my artwork and social media posts. I'm creating epic masterpiece, after masterpiece. I can't get any better. Some financial freedom would be nice.
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