Dr. Natural said

Dr. Natural said:

"Andrew

As we have discussed many times, when you get particularly angry about the current state of your life, your emotions grab hold of the card in your mind that pictures your mother as someone who feeds you, provides an apartment for you, draws with you, and tries to anticipate your future needs, and flips the caring mother card in your mind around into a Mother=Hitler=Sadistic Pedophile card where the cause of all your sorrows is your mother.  The Mother=Hitler=Sadistic Pedophile card is brought to life in your mind by the anger you feel at your life having turned out as it has.  You vent that anger at times by breaking something.   Because the task of venturing further out in the world seems to you an impossibly daunting proposition, you aim your frustration at your mother rather than directing your energy toward building your life up by socializing.  You seem to have handled the breakup with (Bun Bun) well when it first happened, but lately you have been thinking about her and missing her.  You found her by leaving your room and going out into the world.  Sadly, even with (Bun Bun), for whom you had and still have fond feelings, occasionally the good real (Bun Bun) card would flip into the (Bun Bun)=Deceiver card.  

As I have tried to show you, your difficulties are not essentially maternal, but internal.  Your fear of the world results from the tendency of your mind to flip images of people in keeping with your fantasies and feelings at the moment.  Those images toggle between the rescuer who will save you and the persecutor who is responsible for you problems.  As surely as you draw pictures now, the experience of being bullied drew a picture in your mind of a bully=persecutor=mother=(Bun Bun) that comes to life when you are angry.  In the time I have known you you have made strides into the real world.  That's where you found (Bun Bun) in the first place.  Your comedy was well received in the real world.  You can make progress in the real world if you set your mind to doing it."