Dr. Garrett's Email:
Jan 26, 2024, 9:26 AM
Andrew
Yes, you are obsessed with a riddle (how to get your persecutors to confess) but alas this riddle has no solution. You will wait and wait, month after month, year after year, anticipating a confession that will never come because your mother, your father, me, Kelly, and whatever persecutor de jour occupies your mind that day are not engaged in a conspiracy. Your mind is conspiring to deprive you of trust.
I am well aware of the irony of your situation. You say your trust in everyone has gone, and yet to receive help from anyone, you would have to trust them enough to listen to what they are saying. It is foolish, really, for you to proclaim that no one tries to help you when it is your mind that closes the door to any outreach from others.
Think about it for a minute. Which is more likely? Your mind is painting everyone around you with a dark wash of SUSPICION which taints everyone because your mind is the source of your global SUSPICIONs not the veiled actions of others? Or, that your mother, your father, me, Dr Coplan, Kelly have nothing better to do than torture you? If you were to believe that your mind is the culprit, that your mind is deadening you, that your mind is casting a wide net of SUSPICION that undermines your capacity to engage with others, then what feels to you now like a cat and mouse game where you are devoting your life to exposing persecutors would immediately change into a different problem - how to dissipate your illusory SUSPICIONs, which I and Dr Coplan are here to help do.
You speak of your suppressed rage. Here is how I understand you current state of mind. You were bullied when you were in school. The bullies, by definition, intended to harm you psychologically. That's what bullies do. They taunt people, make them feel afraid. Those bullies are long gone from you life. They may not even remember you. Maybe they have reformed their ways and become better people. Who knows. But, if I am right about this, and I think I am, your devoting your life to exposing how your mother, your father, me, Dr Coplan Kelly, and the persecutor de jour are harming you comes from your determination to not let the bullies get away with what they did, to expose them for what they are, to bring them to justice. Because there is no way to take the bullies of your childhood to court, you take your mother, your father, me, and Kelly to court in your daydreams. Your feeling that you were harmed when you were a boy is true, but the feeling (SUSPICION) that you are still being harmed by your mother, your father, me, Dr Coplan and Kelly is not true. In your determination to not let the bullies of your childhood get away with it, your mind has made your mother, your father, me, Dr Coplan and Kelly scapegoats in a quest for justice that will never achieve what you intend, be cause the bullies have long since left the building.
The good news is that you are not without social skills. You have things to offer in relationships with others. You can build up a real life, now, but in order to do this you will need to set aside the quest to bring the bullies of your childhood to justice. In some of your posts you allude to your becoming famous despite your persecutors as a form of justice. If you allow me to tone that down just a little, there is a saying, "The best vengeance is living well." You need to make living well your vengeance. Every day that your mind allows your SUSPICIONs to reign is another day of your life claimed by the bullies of your past. It is my job to help you psychologically process the reality that you will never be able to bring the bullies of your childhood court, nor will you every be able to bring your proxy defendants to court (your mother, your father, me, Dr Coplan, and Kelly), and to psychologically process the rage you feel when you SUSPECT that the persecutors are still getting away with it.
We come to your next challenge. I am trying to show you a door out of the trap your mind has set for you, but to walk through it, you would have to trust me.
Dr G
Dr. Coplan's Email:
Jan 26, 2024, 10:00 AM
Agree with Dr Garrett, its time to let the past go and move on to the future.
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